John Gierach

The Drive Home

A road trip gets all the cards on the table. The usual hardships of getting out early, getting in late, getting lost, getting rained on, getting skunked, and all the other things you can get tend to reveal character in a matter of days. Creeps and idiots cannot conceal themselves for long on a fishing trip.

                                                                        John Gierach, The View from Rat Lake

 

            I have always loved road trips. It started with drives from Southern California across the Arizona and New Mexico deserts in July and August in the mid-1960s to visit my grandparents. My parents, three sisters and me would pile into a Buick or Bonneville and make our way with the obligatory stop at a Best Western or Motel 6, depending on how the finances were shaping up. If we drove straight through without a motel stop, that was a pretty good sign that money was tight. We did it all: Flat tires, gushing radiators, cracked head caskets and, of course, car sickness. My mother dealt with the latter by doping us with Dramamine.

            There was the obligatory “hamburger, french fries and a milk shake,” which was pretty much the only food I ordered at any dining establishment until I was about fourteen. Around then, I took the bold step of trying pizza. And, of course, there was music. My sisters would sing and harmonize while my mother sang along sweetly, if very quietly.

            By the time I could drive, the die was cast and I was routinely planning the next driving adventure. The drive from Los Angeles to the Rockies to explore colleges with two of my best friends in the dead of winter during my senior year of high school could be a thrilling novella in and of itself. My two-month odyssey around the country (with a bit of Canada) after college with one of the same friends remains etched in my memory as among the most carefree times of my life.

            In the years since, I have done road trips with my own family as well as solo, shorter trips. While the former are more memorable, the latter usually involved some fishing. Sometimes those fishing trips were only overnight, sometimes they were for a few days and nights. Most of them happened in Colorado, and then Alaska.  Thanks to a very patient wife, there were a lot of them.

            A few years ago, J said, “You know, we really need to do some Western U.S. fishing road trips.” Now, J and I have fished a lot of different places together over the last thirty years and, from time to time, we had to do some driving to get where we were going. But the driving was always incidental to the other completely necessary transportation we had to take to get to where we were going. We never talked in terms of the driving being a significant feature of the trip—only the fishing.

            J was right. We’re blessed to live in a part of the country that has great trout streams sprinkled around within a thousand mile radius. We could do a trip every summer for the next fifteen years and not come close to covering them all…and never have to endure jet lag.

            So, a few years ago, we made a start. We had mixed fishing results but loads of fun. Well, there was the time that J slipped in a high mountain creek after a great day of fishing and I had to put his wading boot on for him the rest of the week since he couldn’t bend his leg. But he assured me he was fine. “Just put the *&%! boot on and let’s go fishing.” J has always been tougher than me.

            This year, I started the summer with a fishing road trip and finished it with another trip. In late May, J and I set out for Grey Reef near Casper, Wyoming. But not together. In general, I am the organizer and planner for our trips because, well, I am better at that than J. This year though, despite my best efforts, J managed to book another trip the week following our road trip which involved him getting on a plane in Denver the morning after our last day. Without belaboring the details, this necessitated two vehicles rather than one. By midday, J was apologizing profusely for our inability to sit in one vehicle and solve the world problems that we would forget about the moment we strung up our fly rods and made the first cast.

            Sure enough, once we were fishing Grey Reef, all logistical snafus were forgotten. We had two peculiar days of fishing. Normally, J and I tend to have fairly comparable results. He is a better caster than me but I see flies and fish better, largely because J is color blind and I am not. On Grey Reef, J caught at least a dozen more fish than me the first day, but then I caught at least a dozen more than him the second day. We both know this happens sometimes and we wouldn’t still be fishing together after all these years if either of us pouted about it, but it does introduce an element of awkwardness as the prolific fisherman lamely tries to assure the other that he’s still a very good fisherman and there are just days like this and blah, blah, blah….

            We moved on to the Big Horn in Montana. J and I have fished the Big Horn before but were excited to get out with a guide who some Black Hills friends recommended. He turned out to be very knowledgeable as well as personable. The weather, however, was not as appealing. The first morning Biblical amounts of rain descended on us. We gamely tried to fish through it but it was very slow going. By noon, the jacket that J mistook for a rain coat was providing no protection and he sat shivering in the front of the boat for about an hour before saying “I really need to get out and go warm up.” As I said, J is a lot tougher than me, so this was roughly akin to Donald Trump saying, “I may have lost that election.”

            We did go warm up and the rain slackened enough to allow for some decent fishing that afternoon. The next morning was still slow when J had to get in his truck and head for Denver to catch his plane the next morning. Of course, the fishing in the afternoon after he left was nothing short of spectacular. I had fun, but the drive home would have been much better if J and I were regaling each other with our assumed brilliance when we were landing fish after fish just hours earlier.

            I ended the summer with a road trip with my son, J.C. As I have written before, J.C. has become a good fisherman. He has honed the most important trait for successful fly fishing which is perseverance, which is not the same as robotically flogging the water until the sun goes down. It is the ability to keep studying the fish, the flies, the water and everything else that is going on and changing as you fish. Those who persevere eventually find the right combination and catch fish.

            We drove to Southern Colorado where J.C. had scouted some locations the summer before on his way back from a wedding in New Mexico. We set out from Denver with Jessica by the Allman Brothers blaring through the truck speakers (The McKims start all their road trips with Jessica--as tradition goes, it’s not going to threaten turkey at Thanksgiving or Christmas trees, but, it’s our thing).

            We fished the Rio Grande the first day. We hiked a few miles to get to the water we wanted to try out and the effort turned out to be worth it. We didn’t catch loads of fish but we caught enough fish several different ways, which, for a fly fisherman, is about as good as it gets. It was pretty and, remarkably, we saw no one else all day.

            Then came the type of mistake that almost always afflicts every road trip. Sometimes it can rob the trip of all its potential. Other times, it leads to a lot of laughs on the path to setting things back on course. Fortunately, this was predominantly the latter. Suffice it to say that when Plan A proved unfeasible due to low water levels, I conceived Plan B, and we drove three hours to fish a river…that was not the river I was thinking of. It was in a beautiful valley and was beautiful water. And we got skunked.

            I will never be the featured fisherman on a Saturday morning fly fishing show but I can safely say it is very rare for me to get skunked. J.C. did a little better getting a few half-hearted splashes at a dry fly but we ultimately hiked out shaking our heads and dreading the two hour drive still ahead of us. Thankfully, J.C. is still relatively young and intrepid and was willing to drive. We managed to find some mediocre Mexican food on the Sunday before Labor Day and at least had the pleasure of a bed after two nights of camping out.

            Our last day started slow on a small creek but picked up nicely by late morning. We fished together taking turns with two rods—one strung to throw dries into shallow riffles and one strung to throw streamers into deep cutbanks and bends in the river. We knew we needed to get on the road early to compete with Labor Day traffic and so that J.C. might get some sleep before returning to work the next day. But we probably stayed an hour later than we should have because, well, we were catching fish.

            Nonetheless, we did leave earlier than we would have if we had nowhere to be. The hike out was difficult for the third day in a row, but our spirits were good because the effort seemed roughly equal to the pleasure. We chatted a little about the fishing but soon were consumed with trying to navigate our way back into Denver by the most efficient route. I lived in the Denver area for twenty years so it was remarkable that our efforts led us to two roads that I had never traveled before.

           

            As I make my way through another Wyoming winter, I will look back fondly at my summer road trips with one of my best friends and my son. And, if history is a guide, I will start planning the next road trip. As I plan, the lessons I will take from this year will be one I already knew, and one that I probably knew, but had forgotten.

            First, notwithstanding droughts and threats of global calamity, there is a lot of water to fish in the West. Patience is usually rewarded. But, occasionally not, and those are the days that separate the passionate from the mildly interested.

            Second, never sell the drive home short. It’s the part of the story that is hardest to write, coming as it does after the climax.  It’s where the insights, laughs and the memories that are worth incubating are shared, where the successes start their journey to legend and the failures begin the process of moving from tragedy to comedy.

            Getting safely home from a road trip is always a blessing. But, done well, the drive home is why you will turn off the TV, throw the rods in the bed of the pickup and do it all again next year. Not because you have to catch fish, but because you have to share a road and a river with someone who appreciates the road and the river as much as you. In ten years, your companion will readily confirm that it was as wonderful as you remember. Whether it really was or not.

 

J

J.C.

Some Quotes From My Favorite Fly Fishing Authors

Fall is my favorite time to fly fish. The creeks and rivers are down and the fish start rising to load up their bellies to help them weather winter. It’s been a very wet summer here in the Black Hills so it may be a different Fall but, at some point, it will be good. It always is. 

 As it gets cooler, fly fishermen start to wax philosophical. This is where the fish caught earlier in the year start to grow larger and the promise of the fish to be caught in the next year starts to germinate. Many fly fishermen feel compelled to write about it. Some of them, like John Gierach, Ted Leeson and a few others are quite good.

 Here are some samples from a few of my favorites.

 Fishing in general has always seemed to me a form of subversion anyway.  In a world that insists upon “means” and “ends,” that dooms every path to a destination, fishing elides the categories and so slips the distinction altogether.  You become engaged in the nonterminal, participial indefiniteness of “going fishing.” It exists wholly for its own sake, productive (at least in the late-twentieth-century sense of the term) of absolutely nothing. Measured against the ledger-sheet sensibility; corporate or Calvinist, it is a form of anarchy, and that legions of bottom-liners haven’t yet sniffed it out as something dangerous baffles me a little. To go fishing is essentially functionless, though that’s not at all the same thing as saying it is without purpose.

                                                     Ted Leeson, The Habit of Rivers

 I enjoy fishing too much to risk my life at it. Death can really cut into your fishing time.

                                                      John Gierach, Trout Bum

 A road trip…gets all the cards on the table…The usual hardships of getting out early, getting in late, getting lost, getting rained on, getting skunked, and all the other things you can get tend to reveal character in a matter of days. Creeps and idiots cannot conceal themselves for long on a fishing trip. 

                                                       John Gierach, The View from Rat Lake

 Fishing is a chance to wash one’s soul with pure air, with the rush of the brook, or with the shimmer of the sun on the blue water. It brings meekness and inspiration from the scenery of nature, charity toward tackle makers, patience toward fish, a mockery of profits and egos, a quieting of hate, a rejoicing that you do not have to decide a darned thing until next week. And it is discipline in the equality of man—for all men are equal before fish. 

                                                       Herbert Hoover, Fishing for Fun and to Wash Your Soul

 The purist fishes exclusively with a fly rod, which means that he owns a spinning rod and sometimes uses it, but he doesn’t talk about it much…and stores it separately from his fly tackle.

 Chances are it’s a very good rod.

 The snob is exactly like the purist except he doesn’t own a spinning rod. He used to, but he gave it away years ago, not wanting to have the filthy thing around the house. Furthermore, anyone who does fish with a spinning rod is sleazy and cheap and his parents were probably not married. This guy is not nice, or very happy either, and the time will surely come when he gets pretty lonely too. Snobbery occurs as the result of a logical fallacy. We all want to experience and appreciate something of excellent quality, but it doesn’t follow that we’re every bit as good as what we do. 

                                                       John Gierach, The View from Rat Lake

 You get over these small losses the way a lizard grows a new tail, and you end up remembering the great uncaught fish as vividly as you do the caught ones—and just as fondly too, because there’s a part of every fisherman that roots for the fish. 

                                                       John Gierach, Even Brook Trout Get the Blues

 If you’re weary, sick but still ambulatory, fed up, overworked, angry, frustrated, heartbroken, need to think things over or need to stop thinking things over for a while, you should definitely go fishing, and you should go alone so you don’t bother anyone. But then fishing, like most other simple human pleasures, is better when it’s done out of love than when it’s used as a painkiller. 

                                                       John Gierach, Another Lousy Day in Paradise

 A fish like this doesn’t count. I meant to catch it, but didn’t catch it the way I meant to—a distinction that nonanglers often find idiotic…Luck and happenstance are always part of fishing, though for the most part, I think, in small and subtle ways that an angler never notices. But the aim of fishing is to fish well, and the aim of fishing well is to make chance count for as little as possible. Much of the pleasure comes from knowing, or at least preserving the illusion, that we are agents of our own success, that we have orchestrated the whole affair ourselves, that a trout is not hooked through some quirky turn of events, but that it willingly and predictably responds to our own ideas about how it ought to behave. The accidental trout fails to satisfy because it is an unrepeatable phenomenon; it means nothing but that accidents happen…It has, at best, a sort of fluky entertainment value, like a tee shot that caroms off the clubhouse for a hole in one. 

                                                       Ted Leeson, Jerusalem Creek

 For one thing, like many fly fishermen, I enjoy watching another angler fish nearly as much as I enjoy fishing myself, and on some occasions even more…Watching somebody fish is a good deal more like watching baseball, a slow-paced game with studied aspects, than it is like watching, say, a stock-car race, where spectators may gather in the simple hearted hope of witnessing catastrophe. To split a rod with someone is a leisurely thing, and if that someone is any good, watching him lay out a cast and drop the fly and work the water feels very much like fishing, even though you’re not holding the rod. The stakes are low because you are there in part for companionship, and if you choose your partner wisely, the company is always good no matter what the fishing is like. 

                                                       Ted Leeson, Jerusalem Creek

 That Presidents have taken to fishing in an astonishing fashion seems to me worthy of investigation. I think I have discovered the reason: it is a silent sport. One of the few opportunities given to a President for the refreshment of his soul and the clarification of his thoughts by solitude lies through fishing…Next to prayer, fishing is the most personal relationship of man; and of more importance, everyone concedes that the fish will not bite in the presence of the public, including newspapermen. Fishing seems to be one of the few avenues left to Presidents through which they may escape to their own thoughts, may live in their own imaginings, find relief from the pneumatic hammer of constant personal contacts, and refreshment of mind in rippling waters. Moreover, it is a constant reminder of the democracy of life, of humility and of human frailty. It is desirable that the President of the United States should be periodically reminded of this fundamental fact—that the forces of nature discriminate for no man.  

                                                       Herbert Hoover, Fishing for Fun and to Wash Your Soul

 I agree with a friend of mine who says that if fishing is really like sex, then he’s doing one of them wrong. 

                                                       John Gierach, Dances with Trout

It is those we live with and love and should know who elude us…

Like many fly fishermen in western Montana where the summer days are almost Arctic in length, I often do not start fishing until the cool of the evening. Then in the Arctic half-light of the canyon, all existence fades to a being with my soul and memories and the sounds of the Big Blackfoot River and a four-count rhythm and the hope that a fish will rise.


Eventually, all things merge into one, and a river runs through it. The river was cut by the world's great flood and runs over rocks from the basement of time. On some of those rocks are timeless raindrops. Under the rocks are the words, and some of the words are theirs.

 
I am haunted by waters. 

                                                       Norman Maclean, A River Runs Through It